I’ve always been slightly scared of painting on canvases… actually I’ve spent most of my life fearing the white page like a lot of people do.
When I was a kid my family would rip up or throw away anything I drew, painted or made, so I guess I got the ‘message’ that it is wrong/bad to create, make and draw etc. yet I still keep coming back to it.
I bought some canvases last year and they have been sat doing nothing the whole time like a lot of my art supplies (I’m practically a collector of modelling, drawing, painting, diy tools … comes in handy when you do finally decide to make something though :-D)
I decided to actually try to do something with the canvases that didn’t involve using them as a photo backdrop to my jewellery product photos…
I will scan these properly soon (once the protective layer has fully dried) but here’s some mobile phone pics for now.
I really like the close ups so I will do a very detailed scan and create some prints from those.
These was the canvas sat with the others last week (mentioned in an earlier post)
I forgot to scan the canvas before I applied the oil colours on top… dammit!
it’s hard to see in these mobile phone pics (sorry… it’s an old iPhone) but the background is in layers of white and blue with thick gel medium between … all applied with palette knives then another thick layer of gel medium on top (that stuff is actually quite expensive if you use it like I do!!!) which gives the top layer of oil sticks a ‘lift’ … I would like to try that effect again.
I’ve spent such a long time listening and reading about creative business as I’m technically a small creative business owner… errr… but mostly I just work freelance for my old company scanning/cleaning/data researching photos… (which runs out soon… eek!) I do occasionally sell prints of my photographic work but I want to move into illustration and designs which is proving difficult… apparently people are not aloud to have several interests (I see them all similar though?!) so I have to keep it all separate… urgh… it’s causing me conflict and confusion… most of my ideas blend the two or at least elements cross into each other.
One thing they all mention in creative business is about connections with others. I’ve always known that most things in life are about who you know which is difficult as I’ve always been the stranger … moved constantly as a child and never know how to get people to do anything as I always think people can choose for themselves and, if they don’t want to do something then it’s fine… this is not a good thing as it means I do everything myself and then others expect me to look after them too … anyway back to what I was discussing… connections, bridges between people and their needs and desires… some can be blood lines other times it’s not but there is some kind of family/familiar bond/place between them or at least an emotional response, like attraction, hierarchy, a need to be more than they actually are … maybe even avoiding seeing themselves as they are.
This canvas started as just a need to get over a fear and I think it’s actually ended up showing another route that I’m suppose to take… make more connections despite the inner scars… (ok, I’ve been following/watching a fair few spiritual tutorials/ meditations as well so it’s all combined!!).
So I declare this canvas to be about connections, building bridges with trepidation & deep scars!
I will have to think about an actual title.
(Anyone else seeing boobs & errr menstral err issues!?!? well, I did want something fairly primitive in emotion)